At last I found a title for my post… though it’s long, it suits the situation perfectly. It’s a song from “dido” which I like the most. I always wonder why I’m still here, in this bloody world, battered and bruised. Life hasn’t given me anything to cheer, anything to feel exhilarated to be precise anything to LIVE upon. I have always lived life with a sense of insecurity actually with a sense of HOPE, cause I never got what I really wanted both personally and professionally, All these days its been a long battle between me and myself to keep my hopes alive and to keep myself intact, now suddenly it seems that I am losing my own battle, that my dreams will never come true, my virtual world will never come to reality. Am I going to be a person who is gonna live his life twice like a split personality? I am in a way started doing that, I know a world where happiness and life go hand in hand, where no misery exist, where I have all the power to ferry my life to success, My heart flees first to this wonderful world and later my conscience follows whenever I feel low, but unfortunately this is world doesn’t exist in reality.
Reality is more crude & cruel. I know I’m not the only one who is suffering and sometimes I feel that I’m overstating a bit, I’m not the kind of person who never feels content with what life has to offer but, I’m the kind of person who is struggling to achieve what I really deserve. I have learned a valuable lesson in life that Material success is not a Real success; it will not bring the Real happiness. Money can be a blessing from heaven or a ticket to hell. Personal success is not measured by who you are, how much you possess or what you have accomplished. Instead it is measured by how good you feel about who you are, what you have done, and what you have. The lessons learned have shaped my attitude towards my life to an extent, Now I ask myself , does that mean that I have be content with what I have, though I deserve more?
Personal Success is different for everyone. For some, it’s a rollercoaster ride and for some it’s a gentle ride on calm water, I think I have to take my life on its own stride, whatever the ride be, I should learn to enjoy it. I read it somewhere that “If you are looking to experience life without ups and downs, twists and turns, starts and stops, Visit a graveyard and rest in peace”. I don’t wanna do that, I know there is reason to be born. I now know that life is a process, and I need to understand that it may take time to get what I want, till then I will keep my hopes alive and walk through the dark tunnel until I see light at the end.
